Friday, June 24, 2011

Does Anyone Know the Way to Total Surrender?

This question has been haunting me for 3 or 4 years now and I still don't know the answer.

It's very distracting, not knowing the answer. It's a bit like running around without direction. Not so funny image in my head right now... a headless chicken running around without any direction. And I mean the not so funny part.

This is really bothering me. I would love to hear some stories or some answers. I hope I find what I'm searching for because this is really giving me a lot of headaches and sleepless nights.

I am grateful. Please don't get me wrong Lord Jesus. I kind of get the feeling that the answer is staring me right in my face but for some reason it's like a sea mist... disappearing just as I'm about to reach out and touch it. Words can't describe it. This is sheer torture. I don't know what to make of this anymore.

It's like I'm scared to death but at the same time very excited. Does that make sense? It sure does not to me!

Sigh! I wish I could get just one hour with you Lord Jesus, maybe I need some scolding or something. At least that's how I feel. But I know that You are such a loving God that You would never want me to suffer without reason. Maybe I'm just punishing myself for something that should've been buried long ago.

Time to shut down, I think. Must be doing too much thinking again. Nothing new. Oh well. At least work is going well once more. Thank You Jesus. I just wish the rest of my life would fall into place soon. Time, please be I wish I could take back some of the things I've said and done Lord Jesus Christ but this is probably part of my journey.

Thank God for Music. And Work. And FAMILY & FRIENDS. I would be lost without them. Especially the last two. Whew! Enough for now. I love You Lord Jesus and I always will. Thank You so much for Loving me first. Praise You for everything You Are and all that you have given me. I love You Jesus. Nyt nyt for now. :)

Wednesday, June 1, 2011


“He will guide you to all truth.” – John 16:13

One day, I was preaching about the power of our words. I asked my audience to say out loud, “I’m beautiful!” After the talk, I saw a young beautiful woman waiting for me at the foot of the stage. But I sensed deep sadness in her eyes. She asked me, “Bro. Bo, if one says I’m beautiful but I feel ugly, isn’t she lying?” I asked, “Why do you think you’re ugly?” She told me her story. When she was a little child, her father would tell her, “Dorothy, you’re ugly.” And he’d laugh the meanest laugh. She said, “Since then, I’ve always felt ugly.” I asked her, “Define lying.” “When I say something that’s not true.” “We’ve got a problem here. You say you’re ugly. Your father said you were ugly. But today, I announce to you that God says you’re beautiful. Who is telling the truth? You, your father or God? Only one of you claimed, ‘I Am the Truth.’” She broke down. Dorothy allowed the words of her father to create ugliness in her life. She jumped from one lover to another, searching for someone to tell her that she was beautiful. But the truth is in God — who created all of us beautiful.

Bo Sanchez (

REFLECTION: Are you allowing lies to rule your life?

Lord, help me to always trust in Your truth.